For some reason I'm not feelin' so good about my blog this morning. Well it's this dang low selfesteem, second guess yourself thing. Last night I was so excited about the followers I've got with only a couple weeks of blogging and the wonderful support (you ladies are awesome!) Seriously you almost get giddy over something someone else would think is like "ya whatever". It's been good for my self esteem. I've been reading so many awesome, amazing blogs and well....enter the ugly, nasty thoughts that I won't go on about cause I sound like I'm whining.....maybe I am.
I am just like super mood swing mom lately. I mean I go to bed so happy with my new blog and wake up covered in self doubt again. There's a lot more to this bloggy thing than meets the eye. Part of me really wants to do this cause I need a place to let things out and the other part well....you know :) I just can't give in this time cause if I want things to change I need to change them (if that makes sense)
'Sides I have three of the bestest kids in the world that I totally don't deserve but love with everything in me and they deserve better.