Anyone else have troubling relaxing? Feel Guilty? Always think they should be doing something?
There's so many things to do ALL THE TIME! Cleaning, Cooking, Changing diapers, More Cleaning, School work, Blog reading, More cleaning, Scrapbooking (sometimes if I'm lucky), Exercising on the Eliptical Machine that is just sitting our bedroom collecting dust, Oh and the most important: SPEND TIME WITH THE KIDS! I feel like I can't relax or if I do I should be doing something else. And many times if I'm doing one thing I should be doing another. Even when I'm sleeping all the things I need to do the next day are running through my mind.
I look at my kids playing and running around outside so happy and joyful and I think wow! they have no other thought in their heads at this moment other than to have fun. What must that be like? Oh to be in the moment. Please tell me how. If it was only that easy. Sometimes I feel like I try to squeeze in reading or craft time with the kids just so I can feel somewhat like I spend time with them, and not let them watch tv all day (I don't do that!), and I'm not a horrible mother who obsesses over cleaning and gets onry with her kids when they interrupt her blog reading, and not just for the enjoyment of it, ya know?
It's like the days are just passing by filled with "have to's" and not many "want to's"
Boy am I feelin the mom guilt!!
Can someone tell me I'm not alone in this insanity????